I love drawing, and going for walk.

The title pretty much explains this post.

Being sick

I am sick, it totally sucks.

I did manage to paint my nails black
in all of the sickness. And I think
black nail polish is so classy, not trashy.

I will also have more time to journal.
And read the Bible, and pray, and do
many wonders. Pray that I will get better!

My Adventurous day with jean.

So Jean has been buggin' me to hang out, but I kept forgeting, so today we finally hung out. And it was soo much fun. We went window shopping, it was so sad, I really need to go shopping! And we just explored downtown, it was prety awesome. We ate a donair.. and it was wrapped in foil. And jean like sliced her lip on the foil. It was actually bleeding for a good 10 minutes. It was funny though. We rain into her friend and his girlfriend gave her some tissue, so that was nice. So then she's like I want ice cream, we go into the baskin robbins she's like can I sample the.. Cappacino biscotti flavour, and there was this bowl for used spoons, and she attempted to put it in, but she ended up throwing it over the counter and almost hitting the lady. The ice cream was exceptional though, she got this thing called the freestyle, so good! Then we are waiting at the stop light, and its about to change.. LOTS of cars around and some people., she decided she was really cold, so her jacket is in her bag, and she tries to carefully take it out, but she did not succeed at that. Her woman equipment fell out on the street, so funny. And so many cars around. Then we sat by her favourite building and chatted. Got some more tea! <3 Did more window shopping. Then went back to richmond, and we to value village, didn't find anything. Then went home. It was quite the adventurous day, Jean and her clumpsyness. I love you Jean!

Things change.

I wish things could like they used to be.
But people change.
I miss the past.

Well now about me.. its been ubber long, I need to start blogging again, I miss it. Well this year is definitely different. I was looking through my emails of like the past 5 years of my life. And I've changed, I'm so different. I like the me now alot better than the me before. What has been goin' on... not much at all actually. Taking this art course, I really like it, and I think its good for me. I need to EXPRESS MYSELF. haha. But its really fun. I made a new friend!! And I think I think I will lose a friend, she joined a sorority, can you believe it!? Yeah I know its a tragety. What else.. Summer is gone and past. And now its fricken freezing in the mornings.. well change can be good, and change can be bad.

Relationships and Men.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship
that’s not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find
what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating
you as you deserve then heck no, you can’t “be friends”.
A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
Don’t settle if you feel like he is stringing you along,
then he probably is.
Don’t stay because you think, "it will get better”.
You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for
staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything.
He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man’s behaviour.
Change comes from within.
Don’t ever make him feel he is god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else’s man if he cheated with you,
he’ll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you.
All men are not dogs. compromise is a Two Way street.
You need time to heal between relationships…
there is nothing cute about baggage…
deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to complete you…
a relationship consists of two whole individuals…
therefore look for someone complimentary … not supplementary.
Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes…
when a man always know where you are,
and you’re always readily available to him –
he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mothers house.
Never co-sign for a man.
Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give
you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar, but get to know others.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them....

Invisible, I think not.

....... Oh how I wish i was .. It'd be marvelous, things aren't the same thats I gotta say.. and i wish at times like things I WAS INVISIBLE! ALAKAZAM! pooff**** ......... I'm not here anymore!

.. I don't know how.

I honestly don't know why but I always have to justify everything I do. I don't have to tell my friends why I do this or that, the only person I need to answer to is God, so I don't know why I constantly answer, maybe I don't know how to say no, or not answer. Also I am so tired, of everyone, like some of my friends. I am losing so much patience for them. I don't know why, I think sometimes we have to leave stuff behind, and there's so much I am taking with me, and now its just dragging along, and I'm getting annoyed, but at the same time I don't know how to let it go.

Brand new

I need a new job, so badly. I dislike DQ very much, aside from getting free ice cream it sucks buttocks. I wanna work @ Pajos, that'd be a fricken awesome job. Sara wants to apply too, so if we both got the job that'd be awesome. They don't open till march so, thats a while, so I'd have to stay at DQ until then, but I'd bike to work or something, and it'd be really fun. I'd get lotsa exercise, make new friends, and enjoy the sunshine everyday. I just want a change so badly. And I want to change, yes I know change doesn't happen over night but I so wish it did.

gone

no matter what in life everyone eventually dies.
but when its someone who has been a part of you
your whole life, its feels like your whole world just falls.

The girl...

The girl who seemed unbreakable...broke.
The girl who seemed so strong...crumbled.
The girl who always laughed...cried.
The girl who was on top of the world...fell.
The girl who would never stop trying...gave up.
The girl who thought she would never fall in love...did.